What is music, but a story, an emotion released to the world. It is passion, it is nostalgia, it is sorrow, joy and exhuberance. Music, to me, is the soundtrack of life. It comes from this deep well that hides within, melodies flowing almost as if they are hanging in stasis, waiting for someone to be their vessel. Music has always been a thread that has woven itself through my life. My mother tells me that I was humming and wordlessly "singing" before I could even speak and to this day I find my days filled with music. Sometimes silly, often whimsical, but always there, music is life.
I have thought a lot about genre, about where I should place my music and after all these years, I still have no idea. My favorite description of my music is neoclassical, although I often call myself Contemporary Celtic or that nebulous singer/songwriter category. As a kid, I had strict classical teachers and mentors as well as folk, neither could seem to find merit in the other, but I see music as simply music. Genre, you always hear about genre. Classify yourself, categorize, but be interesting and unique while doing it. My music, to me, comes from the natural world. That is what inspires me, that is the imagery I place in my songs. Trees, and forests, light dappling through the canopy, The feeling of fiery leaves falling around as you walk on an autumn day, a cherry full to the brim with blushing blossoms, springing to life. The way ice forms in intricate patterns on my window, the sound of the wind in the trees. My lyrics come from there and that is what I want to share with my listener. Words, how they carry meaning for me; whimsy, cycles, inspiring, haunting, dreamlike, peaceful...I could go on. In the end doesn't everyone think that their music is unique? I don't want to say...my music sounds like the blood red of the dogwood against the white snow, so instead I play around with words and say contemporary Celtic. And really those Celts had a healthy respect for the natural world, so perhaps it is fitting. How about this, you make up your mind what I sound like and then let me know. If I like it, I will put in on my site! In the end, placing your music in a category or genre has its advantages and disadvantages. People get an idea of what type of music you play, and if they might like it, but it also brings up pre-conceived notions about that particular genre which may or may not be true for you. Some days I honestly have no idea where I should place my music, but in the end, you have to say something when people ask you "what kind of music do you play?"
Music is my journey. At times it is dififcult, frustrating, at other times inspiring and uplifting. My hope is that my journey, in some way, resonates with you. As I evolve, so does my music, it is the story of my becoming. I chisel away at each layer, and at each stop find more and more of myself.
Songs, to me, are emotional landscapes, fraught with all the turmoil of life. There is a certain vulnerability to setting lyrics on a page. For a song to have emotional resonance, I believe it must, on some level, be truthful. In writing I feel I need to delve into the truths within myself, to contour the thoughts with music and then to clothe them in words. It is not enough to simply write about the masks that are worn for others, it is not enough to treat an emotion as an object to gaze upon, rather than an experience to feel. As a lyricist, I strive for true honesty, for if it is to be real, if it is to find its mark, the words must be shaped from the secret whisperings of the heart.
At times it feels as if I am trying to spin straw into gold, always searching for that one perfect word to sum up the subtle nuances I wish to inflect within the music. There is power in naming, in giving substance to thought, but such naming does not always come easily. I often need to dig deeply, and feel profoundly influenced by my favorite books and poetry.
What is most satisfying about the writing process, is that we all have our own unique associations for words, strings of consciousness that pass through the limited definition, expanding the word from the inside out. Thus, though I have my own intent that I press into the malleable wax of phrasing, every listener will find their own meaning, their own subtle gestalt made up of images, sound and fragrant memory. Each song is an evolving story as it passes from me, to you.
It has been quite a journey. Most people will say to you "I always knew I wanted to be a singer". Not so for me. I had many dreams growing up and ended up studying psychology in school with the idea that I would end up as a clinical psychologist. Not that music wasn't important in my life...it sure was! I just never thought I would end up as an aspiring musician. I have always needed music in some way though in my life. My first big purchase (after a house) was a piano, that I put in my little tiny house. That same piano now sits in my living room, and I play it almost every day. At the time I bought it, I just knew I needed to have some kind of music, I wasn't even singing at that point! When I found my voice, I let my piano sit for a few years, almost untouched, and would practice, and practice voice. Now that I feel some confidence in my voice, I feel this need to round out my musical experiences. I sing almost every day, play the piano almost every day, even if just for a few minutes, and then try to pick up my violin now and again. Oh, and I am also learning how to play harp.
I have always thought that inspiration is doing what brings you joy. Doing that which your soul longs to do, and desires to do with life and love. Inspiration, creation, these two words work together to me. My inspiration comes from a number of places. I definately find that nature forms the basis for almost all the imagery in my music. I find a lot of peace and wonder in nature and often small little moments that hardly seemed mentionable weave themselves into my music, almost without notice. I am inspired by stories. 'The Birch's Lament' is one such story. I found it so poignant and sad, it was just begging to be a song. What I like to do is tell the story from another perspective, letting the characters speak for themselves in my music. Some of my songs are inspired by people that I have known and their impact on me.
I draw from my experiences, good and bad...and it is usually strong emotion that fuels the beginnings of a song. I feel things very deeply, empathize quickly and easily, laugh a lot, cry a lot. I am a very emotional person.
I grew up in a household in which top 40 music was shunned. I have vivid memories of driving with my family through
the blazing heat of Saskatchewan, which we did every summer, listening to classical music. I was always a sucker for the Romantics, and the
desire to play Beethoven burned like a torch within me. Layered within such memories are always the sweet ones of the folk my dad loved
to listen to, Stan Rogers, John Denver and all manner of Irish drinking songs. I took classical piano and violin lesson for many years, performed, competed and toured.
I was in the Calgary Youth Orchestra and in the Calgary Fiddlers, two worlds that were entirely separate and yet seemed to both bring joy. I must say that classical music
has had a profound effect on my life, a realization that has taken me years to come to. It has shaped who I am. I have a great appreciation for all the music I listened to growing up, and usually find myself
coming back to classical music, when I need to let go, when I need to find myself again. Still the music within me, has never wanted to voice
itself completely through either classical or folk music, I guess I have always been a bit different. I suppose it is a truth that I have very diverse musical influences. How do you pick through the the
memories of music and choose what most influenced me when I cannot even name of
the most influential songs?
Once, I went to a dress rehearsal of the
philharmonics' benefit concert, I was, I think 16 at the time. I
listened and thought it was "pretty" until these two men walked onto the stage
in their tattered blue jeans and faded T-shirts. They sung a song of such
exquisite beauty that the tears rolled down my cheeks, unhindered, unwiped, so
mesmerizing were they. That, is inspiration: a connection to a
moment that those men created. A moment in which we were all sharing the
same breath, our hearts sung the same song. Did I decide to be a singer
then? No. But that was most certainly one of the more influential
musical moments of my life. Just as each drop makes and ocean, so does
each song I have ever heard filled my own music. I love so many different
musicians and types of music, from Rachmaninoff to Enya, and it all has helped to
create my music. But as to style, I guess Loreena McKennitt is my greatest
influence. I have loved her music from the very first note on the very
first song I heard, many many years ago. She is an inspiration to
me. She is the only artist in which I can listen to every single one of
her CD's all the way through and love every song. Amazing! Other
influences include Tori Amos, Jewel and Sarah McLachlan
I have always loved the idea of taking a name on for yourself. It's not typical in North America, but has been done in many cultures. I like my name, Andrea, but wanted to take a name that helped to define who I think I am. Sora is a native word, that I have seen to mean "singing bird soaring". I have also seen it meaning "chirping bird". Either way, the symbolism and imagery really worked for me and helps to define the part of me that is a singer. Exhileration, wind, movement, potential...these are all things that come to mind when I think about soaring. Interestingly, in Japanese Sora means "sky". It is empowering to take a name myself, to feel as if I have some control over who I am and how I am defined. I can honestly say that Sora is as much a part of me as Andrea. If someone called "Sora" on the street, I would for sure turn my head, thinking they were talking to me. It's not about ego or escape, it's about finding myself